Coping…
Is it me or is life slowing down? Not the kind of slow-motion we witness in movies. I’m speaking of the kind where it feels like your brain is failing you. The processor speed is wanting. I’m not becoming deranged, no, that’s not the case. It is just something, can’t seem to put my finger on it.
The other day I am sitting infront of my laptop trying to figure out how I’ll do my work project and not make a total debacle out of it. I have a kind boss you know, an easy-going fella I’d say, yet there’s this hovering fear of what if I fail him. It’s a strange season for everybody from work. We’ve had those intermittent sessions where a couple of us drop by the office for whatever reason, but nothing seems to spruce up the dulling effects of not being at the office, working round the clock. I need a twitch at my brain, somebody hit the refresh button please!
Well, the big guy isn’t juicing us, but I’d hate to be at the receiving end lest he opts for budget cuts. I know a couple too many people who have had to be off their grind during this time, trust me, their lives elaborately spell how pathetic it is. So, I zone off and bring myself back again; the drag is mundane but it is taking a toll on me.
Have you ever stared at the mirror till you forgot that the object of concern was self, you ushered yourself into several other universes in that stare? Yes, I’ve leaped to worlds unknown looking at a line of text in the name of reading it. I’ve made more progress in my utopic world than I have in real life. I even became president there! There are days it feels like therapy when the gnawing demands of real-life seem to remain unmet. Don’t judge me harshly, I remain to be a pedestal of what is called sane in my family.
There’s this cliff many have fallen off in these given circumstances. Binge-watching. O the adrenaline that surges through you after an interesting episode of some sitcom, or thriller, or whatever! I slowly sailed towards this precipice in the early stages; but like all good things, movies end, crazy people give spoilers to your most formidable series. Worst of all Netflix isn’t digging deep enough to satiate you, leave alone the movie guy down the street.
We have all metamorphosed to cope; we’ve changed sleeping patterns, gotten a pet, decided to look for things your house has been swallowing. Some of us in all this mambo-jumbo are thinking of building a new career or getting a business off the ground. Regardless of your choice, the wheel of time keeps moving and we try our best to keep up with its cycles. Never letting it dominate us. The greatest of all though is being able to find yourself if at one point you got lost in the busyness of life. Anyway, cheers to new discoveries; remember, man is an untamable animal.